Prayers Needed

Could everyone please say a prayer for one of my coworkers, Norah, and her family. She just found out that her father, who has been battling brain cancer, has passed away. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers over the holidays. Thanks.

The Longer I Run

Thank you, Peter Bradley Adams, for one of my favorite songs:

When that blood runs warm with the warm red wine
I miss the life that I left behind
And when I hear the sound of the blackbird’s cry
I know I left in the nick of time

Well this road I’m on is gonna turn to sand
And leave me lost in a far-off land
So let me ride the wind ’till I don’t look back
And forget the life that I almost had

If I wander ’till I die
May I know whose hand I’m in
And if my home I’ll never find
Then let me live again

The longer I run then the less that I find
Selling my soul for a nickel and dime
Breaking my heart to keep singing these rhymes
And losing again

The longer I run then the less that I find
Selling my soul for a nickel and dime
Breaking my heart to keep singing these rhymes
And losing again

Tell my brother please not to look for me
I ain’t the man that I used to be
But if my savior comes could you let him know
I’ve gone away for to save my soul

If I wander ’till I die
May I know whose hand I’m in
And if my home I’ll never find
Then let me live again

The longer I run then the less that I find
Selling my soul for a nickel and dime
Breaking my heart to keep singing these rhymes
And losing again

The longer I run then the less that I find
Selling my soul for a nickel and dime
Breaking my heart to keep singing these rhymes
And losing again

Hello Beautiful

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What a weekend. Company Christmas party, cousins semi-formal, even took in a movie. Thank goodness I decided to just be lazy today. Especially with the onset of yet another migraine.

Cassisy (my cousin, pictured above) and her best friend, Tori looked so beautiful Saturday night. And so grown up. Its crazy. I have to say their dates were lucky fellas 🙂  I’m so thankful that I’m so close to those girls. I live being around for all of their stuff & for taylors. 

The company Christmas party was fun, at least the little bit I got to attend. I suffered thrust as much as I could before my migraine got the best of me. I hated to leave, esp. since a bunch of us had planned on heading the Strip afterwards to hang out. And lucky me, the migraine is back today, though not nearly as bad.

On a better note :), I got to see the new Sherlock Holmes with my aunt & uncle and Tori’s parents. I loved the first one and this one was really good too.

This seems like a very boring blog but its all I’ve got for today. Hopefully over Christmas I will have some time (and inspiration) to really write a bit. I’m keeping my fingers crossed at the very least. I’m excited for Christmas and I’m ready to spend some time with my family. That’s about all my exhausted brain can come up with tonight.  I hear my bed calling my name…g’night all.

The Written Word

I haven’t told anyone, and I mean ANYONE (unless you count my dogs), but I’ve actually been writing lately.  Its all just random stories, whatever happened to come to mind at the time.  But even so, it feels good.  I never thought I could really write.  I mean, I’ve written countless paper in my lifetime, but that’s not the same thing.  For years, I’ve the loved the idea of writing.  And I hoped every time I finished a great book that I could someday do that.  And for years, I didn’t feel I had anything worth while to write about.

Then, one night, after a particularly awful day, I was just sitting in the middle of my living room floor (in the middle of the night, mind you), bawling my eyes out.  It was one of the times when I just felt alone.  I knew I wasn’t, of course, but it was how I felt.  When I felt I had exhausted every ounce of moisture in my body, I turned my head and saw my laptop top (affectionately named Lappy Gilmore) lying on the floor.  And i just turned on it on and started typing.  And, like magic, words started pouring out of me, something that’s never happened before.  It wasn’t a masterpiece or anything, far from it actually, but I was writing.  And I’ve been writing since.

I don’t write every day, more often than not I’m too tired.  But have kept doing it.  It’s hard to put into words how it feels.   Liberating, definitely.  But so much more.  It’s like I’ve tapped in to a truer version of myself.  I know I have a story, MY story deep, down in me somewhere.  Now, I’m just waiting for the day that it decides to start coming out.

IT’S SO FLUFFY!!!

No idea why I titled my post that, it just popped in to my head 🙂

I just realized this morning that it is only 10 days until Christmas.  This realization makes me both happy and sad at the same time.  I love Christmas.  I mean LOVE Christmas! And it seems like the holiday season is going by oh so fast this year.  But I am, and will continue to enjoy this time of year.

On a totally different note, I’ve been watching X-Factor lately.  I haven’t stuck with the entire show, but I’ve seen parts of it, enough to know the stories and decided who I like. I watched last night’s performance, and I have to say that Josh Krajcik blew me away with his rendition of “Hallelujah.”  First off, I have to make it known that “Hallelujah” is one of my all-time favorite songs.  And i feel as if I have heard just about ever version of it out there, but my favorite has always and will always be Jeff Buckley. It’s unbeatable in my mind.  Having said that, Josh’s version last night came damn close.  It was so devastatingly beautiful.  Full of emotion and moving.  I was fighting back tears because I didn’t wanna cry in front of everyone.  L.A. Reid’s comments after Josh’s performance actually kinda pissed me off.  No way that he wasn’t moved by that performance. NO WAY.  I personally think he is desperate and is trying everything he can to win, which just isn’t going to happen with Marcus Canty.  Sorry.

That’s about I’ve got for now, at least i think so 🙂  But as a treat (probably more for myself than anyone else), here are my two favorite performance by Mr. Krajcik:

Request

Before I go to bed, I have a request of everyone (if anyone) who reads my blog. Please pray for Blaine, two of my very best friends’ dad. He and their family could really use your thoughts and prayers. Thanks 🙂

Welcome to my World.

July. That’s the last time I blogged. In case you hadn’t noticed, it December (and Christmas is a mere 12 days away!). So, obviously its been a while. I was going to continue on with my previous blog site (poorgirlskinnygirl.wordpress.com) but honestly, I was just sick of the name. And on top of that, it doesn’t really fit with my blogging philosophy anymore. I felt like it limited me in a way. I wanna write about me. Every aspect of me and my life and my interests. And Lord knows that’s a long list of randomness.

So this is a fresh start. I don’t know how often I will write, and there is no telling what’s gonna show up on here. Read it if you’d like to, don’t if you don’t want to. It doesn’t really matter. Because this is for me. And maybe, just maybe this will be the start of a journey to find MY story.